Dear stomach.

I owe you an apology. I haven’t been treating you well lately. These past few weeks you’d been having far too much or far too little. I ignored the signs you were trying to tell me until they waned over time. Gain or loss, you suffered either way. You certainly deserve a better lovely owner, not this selfish, I-eat-everything kind of a bon vivant.

Just so we're clear, my dear stomach, I’ll be walking us to the nearest buffet complete with nasi briyani and chef, the moment we're done with these rants. I know you've suffered a lot when we hit the gym, but it’s for your own good. Trust me. Perhaps, I’ll reduce the number of crunches so you won’t be in so much pain. Plus, it’s killing my back as of late…well I guess I’ve made my point.

Boy, I hate self pity. Then again, this is for you. :)

Yours truly,
r_L

Why home sounds like a good idea :)

I had a nice dream. Nothing about the life I lived. Nothing about what I wanted to dream about. Nothing about home. I wished I could recall and write about it once I got up but it was so good I wanted to sleep and continue my dream, amidst the silent morning and the cold weather. It's been days when I really saw the sun coming out but I'm not complaining. Year end always feels like this. Always cold and lazy. Nice and cosy. If only I had a mug filled with hot chocolate, life would be enough for me now. It would be perfect. I resolved not to go home this time when the good opportunity came, knocking at my door. Or rather effortlessly. But my mind was weak, early in the morning so I agreed to this weak self. (btw, who can say no to home really?)

My point is, there will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may even seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.

Meanwhile, I'm a fickle cow. And I don't mind :)

...on the other hand, I can't trust myself with God given time. Hargh.

Have a great hour/day/weekend/week/month or just all year round. Whatever you choose today, you deserve it :D

r_L

Great. Now I'm stuck with this Paint thing.

 It's only a Friday after all. 

You didn't miss anything. 

I only missed you.

r_L

What fun is it being cool if you can’t wear a sombrero?

Moodswing: My girl by Incubus (originally by The Temptations)

I've been screaming without a voice. Due to unexplainable stress. You bet it's fun :-)

…well, the world bores you when you’re cool.

Just bring it on.
r_L

It's that moment of dawning comprehension I live for.

So I accidentally write and post a lot these days, therefore some people may assume I have every self-published word memorized or that I live these shared thoughts constantly. This is not the case. My brain doesn’t reference myself very well actually, and I’m sure I contradict myself every other day in one way or another. One day I feel like I have all the wisdom of the world and the next day my soul wears thin and I stutter just ordering ice cream. 

Then again, this is what I love doing; and that it keeps me going. There’s no rule saying that you can’t be happy with what keeps you so. Just rant. Talk about whatever that comes to mind. Don’t worry about “not making any sense in this or that” … because you will, eventually. Listen to music or anything that appreciates your feelings. Sing to it out loud. Write down things that “get you” or that don’t- see if they’re related. Amuse yourself with crazy ideas and funny drawings. Write whatever and call it poetry. Express your utmost thoughts and feelings, through words or pictures. Create and recreate. You know you’re most alive when you’re in tune with yourself. So expand and spread that awesomeness elsewhere :-) 

By the way, speaking of which, something awesome is going to happen soon. A one-hour night that may mean a lot to our Mother Earth. And this is something that you can take part so easily without needing so much energy. And I mean that literally :-) 

8:30PM local time, wherever you live on planet Earth. Saturday 28 March 2009. Just sit in the dark and share stories. Get your ‘on the night’ photos with family and friends. Lie around the beach and get a star tan. Keep in tune with Mother Nature. Whether you’re in solitude or multitude- thank your Lord. Whatever you do or however you spend that one hour, it will all be it worthwhile :-)

More of this? 

Earth Hour

May the muse be with you.

r_L

Saturdays don't start much worse than this.

Here's something random really: 

1) It’s hard enough to have to deal with lack of common sense… but HONESTY is something practical. Please.

2) If something goes wrong, I'm not dumb. I just have a command of thoroughly useless information. Period.

3) Is it a right to remain ignorant? Yes? Go back to No. 1 :-)

I just can't identify with that kind of work/life ethic. That goes without saying.

Nothing helps a bad mood like spreading it around(!)

Grrh.

So you wish you never read this.

1. I’m a doofus on ice creams, thanks.
2. …still, I love 'em ice creams!
3. Peppermint is my favourite :-)
4. I might suck at cooking dishes, but a  bit better at muffins and cakes and cookies.
5. I think Jason Mraz rocks. Period.
6. I like polaroids.
7. I’m in love with the sky et al. I think we’re involved. Lmao.
8. I’m hypocrisy intolerant.
9. I like colours of the rainbow.
10.  My most played song is 0% interest. The lyrics just kick ass.
11. I can be self-contradicting.
12. I love all sorts of writing.
13. I think crayons and water colour make good combination for a drawing.
14. I love staring into the night especially when there’s nothing in the sky.
15. I have too many shirts with stripes. Seriously.
16. I think people who don’t swear are just cute. I know one ;-)
17. I still can’t give up my habit of eating…plenty. Please.
18. I love more than I hate so no worries.
19. I want to go places someday. Like Japan or something hmm,
20. My most overused phrase is awesome. Idk, it's just awesome :-)
21. I think it may take less than a minute to read this list, but a lifetime making it.
22. I don’t know exactly what makes me choose medicine
23. ... that I boldly resolved not to go home until this block is over-
24. but then realized what a stupid motion that was.
25. And now I miss my teddies. Harrgh.

I wish I could tag you twice, Leah. I do.

The rest, if you’re reading this, you’re tagged.

…

You heard me. Don’t make me repeat myself, unless you want to be tagged twice. That’ll be 50 things altogether. Nice. That should take another life. 

…I’m sorry, but that’s the only way to un-tag yourself :-)

So you wish you never read this.

Did I not tell you that? :-))

God, I love tags, I do. Grrh.

r_L

Back to Earth. Finally.

The sky was never this lovely.

Have you thanked a seaweed before?

Alright, so I've been away for so long now that it's hard to get back and write a few words here. Well, I've been sushisised ( as Leah woulda put it) but that's not entirely false. My appetite went pretty crazy lately it didn't matter why I was so. Well, anyways, here are some of the things that I'd been having 3 weeks in a row... to sum it all up:

Takoyaki

Unagi sushi

Okonomiyaki

...and more sushis

Black pepper udon

California roll



I need help.
I've had too much of these.
Really.


(-,-)"
r_L

This all time weekender is home for a short while.

Tadaima~

...

Oh yeah, me having a good time, no worries.

Happy Eidul-Adha to all Muslim fellows. Have a joyous celebration! ;-)

Aloha.

I am taken... so are YOU.

Sounds like: Valerie by James Morrison (originally by The Zutons)

*To grappymewlon, (pe name ni weh? haha) thanks for the tag!*

1. I’m a fickle-minded woman and a lifetime sufferer.

2. I take pleasure in sophistication through plainness. The outcomes aren’t always pretty but I’m enjoying the beauty.

3. I love reading/writing all sorts of poetry/ haikus/ conundrums/ prose etc. Yes, I’m a romanticist who’s indifferent in the society, thank you.

4. I’m terrible at guitars but it’s hard to keep my hands off em.

5. I've been writing since I was 9. A few editions of nothing unusual were documented. None ever published though.

6. I'm generally painless to those who know me. But people find it more common otherwise.

7. I love bananas. And I would know if one piece went missing. Call me berkira but no one steals my bananas unless my generosity kicks in! Haha. No hard feelings la :)

So that’s pretty much it. And by the way, referring to my previous post, the feedback I was getting wasn’t what I anticipated at all. Specifically about my singularity- that it was actually something to be discussed. I find it amusing somehow. But I wasn’t lying when I mentioned about my being single but taken in a sense. I meant every word.

Then again, aren’t we all taken in a sense?

So I am technically single for simplicity sake. But no single being is absolutely single as they rightfully claim to be. You are taken in a sense that you are loved by everyone (if not, by any caring person) and cherished by many wonderful friends. Sure, it seems like you are pretty attached to every single being in your life, yet not quite like it. You are free to run and live your own life like no one else’s business- all the while trying to fall in love and be rejected. I am taken in a sense that I belong to God; as do all dominions belong to Him :-)

Okay, so this is not just some usual sense. This is a special kind of sense. But I AM special, so are YOU.

I guess you shouldn’t have taken me literally. Or maybe I should have been less complex so to speak. Or maybe I’m just crazy by definition. Gosh, I’m such a pain in the a** after all.

But do you believe me now that we are ALL taken in every sense?

Yes, I am taken… so are you!

*kudos to Anis*

See you soon freaks,

r_L

A cow's been TAGGED!

35 littl​e secre​ts : ​Be hones​t no matte​r what!​ (r_L: okay, I’ll try >,<)

Who was your last tag from?

Huss.

Where​ was your myspace defau​lt pic taken​?

​…back in matriculation. room 306. pretty cool view.

Are you a happy​ perso​n?

I’m a happy cow!

Your relat​ionsh​ip statu​s?

Single, but pretty taken in a sense.

Have you ever lost a close​ frien​d?​

Yes. He was greatly missed.

What is your curre​nt mood?

Indifferent.

What'​s one of your siste​rs names​?

Raja Nur Hamizah (my nothing alike twin)

What'​ s your favor​ite color​?

Rainbow :-)

If you could​ go back in time and chang​e somet​hing,​ would​ you?

No, I’d prolly do the same thing over and over. Haha.

Have a crazy​ side?

I’m on Prozac! ( Lol, jk…I may be but not to such extent la hadei )

Ever had a near death​ exper​ience​?

​I sleep like a dead log, yes…( uh, does that count?)

Who Did You Last Hug?

Pisang!

Are you mad at anyon​e right​ now?

No…why would I be? :-)

What'​s stopp​ing you from going​ for the perso​n you like?

I believe the right question for me would be “Is there anyone you like YET?”Lmao.

When was the last time you cried​?​

Bila eh?

Who would​ you do anyth​ing for?

My family. My food. My cows.

Are you happy​ with your life?

​Pretty much, yes.

Whats​ your favor​ite numbe​r?

21.

Is there​ someo​ne that you will never​ stop lovin​g?

​Yes, some six, and more.

Is it attra​ctive​ to you when a guy/girl smoke​s?​

Not really.

Do you get scare​d easil​y?​

That depends.

Do you speak​ any other​ langu​age?

Ye saye.

Do you have any pets?​

No, but if I could keep a real life bear… I defs would!

Descr​ibe your life in one word?​

Jooooyy!

Have you ever kisse​d in the rain?

​No.

What are you think​ing of right​ now?

Tomorrow.
What shoul​d you be doing​ right​ now?

Dreaming. Of ice cream to be exact.

Who are you think​ing of right​ now?

My cows.

What are you liste​ning to?

Humble Me by Norah Jones. Lovely song, really :-)

Who was the last perso​n you told I love you to?

Cherie.

Who was the last perso​n you yelle​d at?

Uh, my cow.

Do you act diffe​rentl​y aroun​d the perso​n you like?

Lol. I just might but why would I?

What is your natur​al hair color​?​

We cows don’t have ANY to begin with lol.

Who was the last perso​n to make you smile​?

​Leah.

Who am I tagging next?

Leah. Yes, it’ s YOU, cow. No pressure ;-)

Brownies rule!

Brownies rule!

Yep. You heard me right. These little creatures are amazing. Just baked them a few hours ago. And they’re extremely melt-in-the-mouth wonderful and marvelous. The making wasn’t so difficult either; I managed to have it done within an hour. With a few personal touch and fun-tastic prune flavour, this is indeed a record I must say! ;-)

Sigh. Not sure if I could keep them till tomorrow, though… let alone Sunday. (Oh hey, twinnie, I’ll leave you a square… with extra crumbs on it. No worries.) Haha.

All in all, I am just glad I have achieved something today (yeh, I was bored to tears throughout the week!) So what a relief, finally. Hmm, to those who’d like to try some of these, my word: give it a shot. It's really worth trying! Haha. Alright, I didn’t create the recipe myself… so, here’s the biggest secret: Jamie is my brownie saviour!!!

Also, you can get the recipe here: http://www.jamieoliver.com/

ALL THE BEST!

Browned,
r_L

A tee, please!

I need a tee! Of Mraz's, that is. (sighs)

;-)

NIL post for May!!!

You're tagged!

Here are my top 3 disorders:

1. I have a thing for words. It seems, whatever I do, I’ll try to describe the moment or feelings in my head. And it’s very frustrating if I can’t get it right. Such a permanent disease.

2. I love acronyms. I don’t know how or why. But it occurs to me that when I like things or people, I’ll give them acronyms. Say, JM as in Jason Mraz… CP as in yes, Coldplay. It kind of drives my sisters crazy because I start to give acronyms after their favourite artists, too. Like, CBR as in Corinne Bailey Rae and DR as in Damien Rice. Let’s see, the reason why I do this maybe because I feel more familiar with such calling and that it sounds easier… well, doesn’t it? Haha, I don’t know. The rest doesn’t seem to agree. They just don't get it, otherwise.

3. I crave for food while other girls prefer shopping for clothes. Take my sisters for example. Yup, they all love new dresses and stuff while I could be fairly unaffected. Not to question my sexual orientation or what, but I don’t know why I’m not so crazy about getting a new wardrobe. Hmm, maybe not, as of yet. In the meantime, I swear I would give up a brand new shirt to something called food! No kidding ;-)

So to those who care to share your "behavioral disorders", you're tagged!

orderly disordered,

r_L

S.M.I.L.E

09:12 am - Mean Min called!!

..and that’s enough to make my day!!

Gross bisous,

p_oux

WHAT'S YOUR TRUE NATURE?

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
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The quality that most appeals to you:	Spiritual Advancement
In a survival situation, you:	Act crazy as a diversion
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	Artistic talent
In groups, you:	Play an organisational role
Your best quality is:	Your empathic nature
Your weakness is:	Your coldness

I’m just doing it for fun. I find it amusing that some characters had me saying, “ Really?” and “ Wow”- not as in impressed, but if those things were the characters of “me”, I wonder if they were actually true… naah, they were more like something I had wished for. Haha. So try out yourself. See if they funnily match your own nature. Smile.

moi naturalement,

r_L

Goodbye for now..(or a while)

..Well, yea that’s about it. I’ll be off from now onwards, since I shall continue my study at IIUM, doing pharmacy course. (Yes, new life after life!!) Haha, don’t ask me how I’ve made the transition so far (it was hellish alright) as I’m still dealing with it but I guess I’ve gotten better of it. Yet uh, I don’t really know what to expect from my new beginning, but I pray there'll be a good surprise waiting for me. And more promising rainbows hidden therein hopefully. Ay, am I prepared for it though? Not much, but I daresay I’m all set to go now. For better. And for worse (God forbid). So wish me luck, alright? Though I can’t promise you whether I’ll be around here as much, but I’ll try every possible chance to keep this page updated. I’m pretty sure by now that I won’t be having this kind of time in future but hey, don’t give up on me, people!!

..and here's a goodbye, old life *sniff*sniff*

r_L