Of aloneness and togetherness.

I always have this constant voice rehearsing in my head whenever something happens. Kinda like telling me to take a mini break or just take a deep breath. Anything that I thought would help me sort things out. Just to clear my head for a while and see things from a different angle. I needed that. Usually in the past, I’d just have a good shower and the worries just seemed to drain away. So it kinda helped.

But now, I’m not sure if anything works for anything anymore. Neither does it help being on my own nor digress. Not all situations can be dealt alone it seems. I know this is true. Sometimes when you see a friend going through some changes, you do not leave him or her alone. Even if he/she thinks it’s something “I have to go through myself” thing, and just brings forth that kind of attitude (which can be pain in the neck sometimes I know), but you do not leave him/her alone. Deal with your friend. Be understanding. Show them that you’re there even if they think they don’t need you. Because you know that deep down they do. Trust me, I know this for a fact :)

Then again, that does not mean you cannot have some time of your own. I’m sure we all need it at some point. But to face your fears alone aint an easy thing. It can be overwhelming. So go confide in Your Lord. Seek comfort and solitude. Enlighten your faith. Don’t give in to fears. Embrace them. Share your musing with a friend. Going through me-time does not mean excluding everyone in your life and giving up everything else. It just means opening up a little part of you, showing your true self to those who really care about you. Eventually, you’ll figure out what really matters to you. And I know God is enough for me :)

“Seseorang Muslim yang bercampur gaul dengan orang ramai dan sabar terhadap gangguan-gangguan mereka adalah lebih baik dari Muslim yang tidak bercampur gaul dengan mereka dan tidak sabar terhadap gangguan-gangguan mereka.” (At Tirmizi)

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

Good to be back!

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