Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Saturday, November 13, 2010

To err is human, to arr is pirate.

Look what I found on Google today :)

Sunday, November 7, 2010

#2 Monolog.

Bukan mudah mengenal hati. Hati yang bisu tak bermakna lesu, kaku. Hati yang serasi tak semestinya difahami. Hati manusia pada dasarnya sama. Punya keinginan dan rasa. Yang membezakan isi, hanya tujuan dan alasan. Tugas dan kepentingan. Beruntunglah mereka yang mengamati hakikat hati lalu melaksanakan. Bukan sekadar pengamatan biasa, bahkan yang diperhalusi jiwa lantas hidup. Rasa seperti diterima alam dan disayangi Tuhan. Sungguh, aku iri hati dengan kekuatan yang satu itu.

Kukira manusia punya perspektif yang berbeza. Ada yang menganggap cita rasa semuanya sama namun berbeza pembawaannya. Seorang teman bisa menganggap hidup ini aneh, tapi indah. Dalam, tapi mudah. Aku juga merasa yang demikian. Namun bezanya, mungkin terletak pada nilai ‘mudah’ itu. Mudah baginya mungkin sukar bagiku. Atau juga sukar baginya namun mudah bagiku. Mungkin itulah menjadi titik tolak perbezaan dan persamaan insan. Indah bukan? Sengaja dibangkitkan perihal manusia yang macam macam. Sekadar curiga dengan kerja Tuhan.

Mungkin ada yang berasa tidak adil tiapkali aku membicarakan soal hati dan Tuhan dalam satu posisi yang selari. Seperti mengolah setiap sesuatu daripada sudut agama, terus minatnya untuk mengetahui langsung tawar. Mungkin ada yang berasa ia harus dibawa dalam satu perspektif yang lain, di mana hati itu harus dikenali atas dirinya sendiri. Tidakkah kau fikir aku telah cuba?

Hati itu bisa keliru apabila dibiar tergantung, tidak beralas. Gelisah tatkala melanggar fitrah. Hai, begitu sukarkah mengenal hati lantas mengawal? Benar, jika hati itu rimas bila lemas. Malas tika puas. Aku gagal membawa ia jauh dalam pengasingan. Hati itu benar-benar telah lekat dalam diri, bersatu dalam entiti manusia. Matinya hati, matilah manusia sebelum ajalnya. Hidupnya hati, maka hiduplah kau berkali-kali. Bagaimana, masih sukarkah kau mengenal seketul daging itu?

Barangkali aku dapat mengenal hati, barangkali tidak sampai mati. Barangkali aku dapat mengenali sesuatu yang lain yang lebih penting daripada hati. Barangkali juga aku ini manusia aneh. Punya keinginan dan rasa yang aneh. Tetapi inilah yang menjadi sebahagian daripada diriku, yang aku berharap dapat meliputi segenap akal dan jiwaku. Inilah kesukaranku, inilah kemudahanku. Inilah kemahuan dan pilihanku. Tatkala manusia tidak mampu bersabar dengan kemahuan mereka, aku mempelajari erti sabar daripada kemahuanku. Kerana aku mahu pada Tuhanku, ingin pada kasih sayangNya. Nah, mahukah aku tunjukkan lagi apa yang enggan engkau fahami?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I think, therefore I am!

You know, if anything goes wrong with the world, I shouldn’t worry. I may not be fine but I’ll find my ways to be fine. Then feel alright about it. Isn’t it strange for us to say, “I’m lazy. I’m fat. I’m no good,” thereby creating our life experience to be one that is late, tired, and worthless. Leave it to our egos to keep us in that small game and hold us back. If you haven’t started yet, I invite you take on affirmations that brighten your day. Create a bigger life for yourself simple by saying things like, “I am tireless, perfect being. I have access to everything and I am complete.”

Check out Jessica’s Daily Affirmation. She’s got it all figured out :)


Dear Ma & Dad,
I am whole. I am stoked. I love this day. I love my studies. I love my sisters. I love my friends. I love my cookies. I love my cake. I love my state. I love my ability. I love my faith. I love my hair. I love my mole. I love that this is what my life looks like. I love you!


Wednesday, May 12, 2010

If you can’t stop smoking, cancer will.

So I came across some information about the lung cancer and many other kinds of diseases where the habit of smoking could really lead to them. And I can’t help but feel the need to write about it. Common sense tells me that when you know something, especially if it benefits other people, by all means spread the word. So today’s tip is simple. Stop Smoking. I know you’ve been told over and over by God knows how many people but that’s because it’s just not worth cutting your lifespan on cigarettes. Not to mention, the smoking trend ended in the 90’s. Give it up. If you don’t smoke, I challenge you to help someone you know quit.

Now according to Malaysian’s statistics, about 50 teenagers below the age of 18 start smoking daily. Studies show about 30% of adolescent boys (aged 12 to 18) smoke. Unfortunately though not surprisingly, smoking among female teens is rising, where in overall, nearly one in five teens smokes. Some studies have also shown that lung cancer is rising at a rate of 17% a year. Thank you very much Mr Dunhill, Kent and family.

So I’ve known a friend who’s been smoking for 10 years and he told me how much fear and insecurity is wrapped up in it. I also know how scary it is when you think about quitting. You might think life is gonna suck, that you’ll gain weight, or be depressed. But the fact is, if you keep smoking, you will always be out of shape and depression will be more common. To get a similar buzz, you may as well put your lips around an exhaust pipe.

To not smoke means you care about what goes into your body, thus strengthening your level of consciousness. The less toxins in your body means the less toxic thoughts you’re likely to have. Ignorance may be bliss, but it is also unattractive.

Some people say they smoke because of boredom. Some people smoke because it keeps them awake and gives them a recharge. Some people smoke to help them relax. A cigarette isn’t a miracle performance enhancer. No, it isn’t. It’s you who chooses boredom, to be awake or to relax. A sunset will still be beautiful without a cigarette to mark the occasion. A movie is still the same movie even if you don’t smoke after it. The drive to work is still the drive to work. Why add poison to the process? Spare me. I wouldn’t even date a smoker.

That’s enough of my spiel. If you want to quit, just do it. If you want some assistance, there are many great ways to do it. If you’re in an environment which doesn’t help you in the process, leave it or create anew. Be in a circle of friends who appreciate your effort. Or make one. Nothing works best than trying to solve the root of the problem and work from thereon. And if you still can’t figure out why, try to meditate your soul in your prayers. Look deeper. It’s a painless great method that doesn’t put any additional pressure on your transformation. Then have faith in new you. Belief, does a remarkable job of reversing the psychological addiction that smoking actually is. So please come of age and stop flipping ash and butts all over the road, into the drainpipes and out into the murky water we need for the sustainability of future generations. Everyone has a right to clean water and air. Your consideration and activism do make a difference in your life, and ours. Thus, us.

I wish all of yous, in the best of health ;-)

Be smart don't start!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Sunday blues? Right on.

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh, I'll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away

Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh, twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees

Twice as much ain't twice as good
And can't sustain like one half could
It's wanting more that's gonna send me to my knees

Gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is

today I feel generally low. but I dont bother to recuperate. just let myself dissolve in the moment for a while. which could be a good thing. but thanks for asking. ill be back before you know it.

...I love you John Mayer but screw you Gravity :(

Friday, April 23, 2010

Still working on this...but i've gotta celebrate progress.

Okay, so I’ll be sitting for the end of block exam next week. The final one before my first professional exam which will be in the next 3 weeks time. Yea, you may call it a season. Or show time :)

I suppose that means I’m nearing the end of my year 2 soon. And I’ll be finishing my 3rd year around the same time next year. Imagine that, how time flies. I bet everyone is struggling for the coming exams and all... (well you should be if you’re not, there’s still time, yes). But more importantly, I’ve gotta say at times like this, it’s easy for anything to happen. Or to make something happen. Be it good or bad. Whether it is beyond your control or not- anything is possible. Like catching a cold, or being super lazy or just pro at procrastinating...while others might act just the opposite :) But when one of those things happen to you, do not just overlook them and let go. You buckle up and reflect. And you do not break down easy.

I know being a medical student isn’t an easy life, but who says it’s easier giving it up either? And I’ve been told over and over to keep myself aware of the fact that my life would be different than the rest, who may be having plenty of time running all sorts of plans, and just keeping up with things. They may be right, and I am aware of that but it’s hard to imagine how my life is like then unless I go through it someday. So I may or may not feel alright about it. But I’ll take my chances. Life’s journey has the tendency to break a man, to fool one into losing his sanity, as distance and time create separation from what others might call normal life. With my family and friends always around the corner laughing, sharing inspirational ideas and quotes, asking me conscious-minded questions, I am kept present to the power I have as a human being living a life fulfilled. So for all this while, I thank all of yous, who have made my life worthwhile. Especially, to those I’ve had the pleasure of sharing my journey with, literally or metaphorically speaking, thank you for not creating me as someone who could give up, burn out, or drown in the process. Thank you for inspiring a long ride that’s been nothing short of amazing. I am sourced by your generous, love-filled thoughts. I am stronger today from your friendship :-)

So it’s not always easy to stay positive and just bring forth that right attitude, but I hope when I’m it, I can make a difference. By sharing my hopes, dreams and ambitions, I’m more likely to walk whatever I talk. And if I inspire one person in the process, perhaps that person will continue the conversation, even starting a blog of their own to back their word, and so on. And feeling like there’s others buzzing out there in the world, I sleep better knowing our species is indeed awake. Otherwise, I apologize in advance for writing so excitedly. i. just. cant. be. helped.

Whatever you do and whoever you are, whether you’re a medical student turning doctor turning specialist... or simply a joyologist who brings smile to people’s faces, you do not give up on what you’re doing. And if you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.

I wish you all the best. May the muse be with you :)

Keep it light.


Sunday, April 18, 2010

A Sunday wellspent brings a week of content.

I love Sundays.
I especially like them when I wake up early.
And then in bed again after an hour-
... that’s because it’s anything-can-happen-Sunday. :)

Last night, I stayed up as late as one can possibly make a Saturday. As I hit the sheets I declared strength for a successful awakening. One shot of the alarm at 6:27am and I was up and at 'em again. This gave me time to wake my friends up, to catch what felt like a sunrise, and to recreate the world as new again.

So why Sundays?

Well, Sundays are good to rejuvenate your thoughts, to take the time to acknowledge yourself. It’s fun to get in touch with equal parts Mind, Body and Soul. By waking up one hour earlier you can date yourself even before your day begins. For example, you could spend 20 minutes calming the mind in prayers, 20 minutes stretching or running or twisting or jumping, and 20 minutes reading or writing – funneling your thoughts into soulful action. Then reward yourself by doing something you think you deserve. Like making breakfast for everyone. Or catching up with old friends. Or just sleep for the next one hour. Because it’s anything-can-happen-Sunday :)

Being mindful of your own thoughts and actions, whether your being generous or gossipy, will dictate your state of grace, your ability to swiftly experience joy and abundance in your life or not.

Now, Listen Well. Live Surprised. And Stay Fresh.



Saturday, March 20, 2010

Of aloneness and togetherness.

I always have this constant voice rehearsing in my head whenever something happens. Kinda like telling me to take a mini break or just take a deep breath. Anything that I thought would help me sort things out. Just to clear my head for a while and see things from a different angle. I needed that. Usually in the past, I’d just have a good shower and the worries just seemed to drain away. So it kinda helped.

But now, I’m not sure if anything works for anything anymore. Neither does it help being on my own nor digress. Not all situations can be dealt alone it seems. I know this is true. Sometimes when you see a friend going through some changes, you do not leave him or her alone. Even if he/she thinks it’s something “I have to go through myself” thing, and just brings forth that kind of attitude (which can be pain in the neck sometimes I know), but you do not leave him/her alone. Deal with your friend. Be understanding. Show them that you’re there even if they think they don’t need you. Because you know that deep down they do. Trust me, I know this for a fact :)

Then again, that does not mean you cannot have some time of your own. I’m sure we all need it at some point. But to face your fears alone aint an easy thing. It can be overwhelming. So go confide in Your Lord. Seek comfort and solitude. Enlighten your faith. Don’t give in to fears. Embrace them. Share your musing with a friend. Going through me-time does not mean excluding everyone in your life and giving up everything else. It just means opening up a little part of you, showing your true self to those who really care about you. Eventually, you’ll figure out what really matters to you. And I know God is enough for me :)

“Seseorang Muslim yang bercampur gaul dengan orang ramai dan sabar terhadap gangguan-gangguan mereka adalah lebih baik dari Muslim yang tidak bercampur gaul dengan mereka dan tidak sabar terhadap gangguan-gangguan mereka.” (At Tirmizi)

Feed your faith and your fears will starve to death.

Good to be back!


Tuesday, January 19, 2010

# Writeous.

Kata-kata adalah cerminan isi hati dan keadaan jiwa.

True that.