Friday, December 25, 2009

Back to Back.

I miss you. I sure do :)

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Dear stomach.

I owe you an apology. I haven’t been treating you well lately. These past few weeks you’d been having far too much or far too little. I ignored the signs you were trying to tell me until they waned over time. Gain or loss, you suffered either way. You certainly deserve a better lovely owner, not this selfish, I-eat-everything kind of a bon vivant.

Just so we're clear, my dear stomach, I’ll be walking us to the nearest buffet complete with nasi briyani and chef, the moment we're done with these rants. I know you've suffered a lot when we hit the gym, but it’s for your own good. Trust me. Perhaps, I’ll reduce the number of crunches so you won’t be in so much pain. Plus, it’s killing my back as of late…well I guess I’ve made my point.

Boy, I hate self pity. Then again, this is for you. :)

Yours truly,


You know what’s odd? I relate to bad news better than good news. Not to say I’m used to it, but it seems like I’m more prepared to face sadness than anything else. And I understand things better especially when I don’t want to understand them. Nothing dramatic ever happened to me so far, or should I say rarely, but I do think about the what ifs, so that kinda helps lol. Now what puts me in perspective? Life’s experiences of many, with tiny weeny addition of my own. Well I probably don’t remember much of my past but I sometimes think time slipping away is a bastard. Cold and selfish. Rude and reckless. Well… no reason. It’s self explanatory.

Speaking of which, I loathe self explaining expressions like, “I need you” and stuff because the message is so loud and clear it’s annoying. It makes me feel insufficient, yet important. I just can’t say no to that it’s hard. It’s like my kryptonite. Whattabitch.

Then again, I don’t think it’s selfish when people get personal over jobs/life etc. Not always, really. Unprofessional, some might say. So what? Nothing wrong either. Because, eventually, you do things according to what you want and how you want them to happen and they work out alright. Rules aside, we certainly have personal interests that keep us going; things that make our lives worthwhile. Unless you’re not a person then I think you should be more pissed, why you just can’t get personal at all. Well, it’s a human thing to do. And it’s part of growing up. And to think that we’ve grown up…

And to think that we’ve grown up. Ay, screw that.

*Hey Randomness, your words are preposterous it’s disturbing. I suggest you stop making sense with your profanity now. You have amused me enough :)

I wouldn’t have written this down if I wasn’t myself. I believe when you’re being yourself, there’s no need to feel bad about it. 'Nuff said.


Sunday, November 22, 2009

Why home sounds like a good idea :)

I had a nice dream. Nothing about the life I lived. Nothing about what I wanted to dream about. Nothing about home. I wished I could recall and write about it once I got up but it was so good I wanted to sleep and continue my dream, amidst the silent morning and the cold weather. It's been days when I really saw the sun coming out but I'm not complaining. Year end always feels like this. Always cold and lazy. Nice and cosy. If only I had a mug filled with hot chocolate, life would be enough for me now. It would be perfect. I resolved not to go home this time when the good opportunity came, knocking at my door. Or rather effortlessly. But my mind was weak, early in the morning so I agreed to this weak self. (btw, who can say no to home really?)

My point is, there will be a few times in your life when all your instincts will tell you to do something, something that defies logic, upsets your plans, and may even seem crazy to others. When that happens, you do it. Listen to your instincts and ignore everything else. Ignore logic, ignore the odds, ignore the complications, and just go for it.

Meanwhile, I'm a fickle cow. And I don't mind :)

...on the other hand, I can't trust myself with God given time. Hargh.

Have a great hour/day/weekend/week/month or just all year round. Whatever you choose today, you deserve it :D


Tuesday, November 17, 2009

# Poetry


I may be the self
I’ll never be
I may be the self
You’ll never see
It seems like this side I’ve been living-
is a lie,
is a lie.

What are we
fool for love;
When what is said, a pure dust
When all we’ve done is lust, unjust
Yet to claim, we have loved enough?

What have I
again, forgotten
to doubt such
Compassion; the
unimaginable You?
To have lived
a life once loved
but to let go-
Damned, if I do.

Longing to heal
The wound unknown
Have I become a selfless being?
Yet to love, the self once torn
God is indeed, a gentle King.

What am I now
You’d see the self I’ve become;
You’d be the self
I’d never seen;
For this side I’ve been keeping from myself-
is alive,
is alive.


Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Grazie mille.

Today is one of those beautiful days where I could think nothing but all sorts of goodness. And more importantly, I feel like I owe people and things around me many thank yous. For a reason or without.

So there, I shall thank you all wonderful souls for being part of my life- knowing you is a joy ;-)

Amidst this silence, I am especially thankful to God for letting me savor this moment of gratitude and thus able to spread His message of Love with everyone else. There is so much to be thankful about when you really think about it. For Islam and knowing its beautiful essence, I am truly honoured to be in this religion. It's always been a pleasant journey to learn so many wonderful insight hidden therein. I could only pray that this beauty stay with me for as long as I live. And even beyond that. Truly, Your Companion is forever felt and cherished :-))

Speaking of which, here is how you could perhaps show your gratitude to little things that have happened in your life. You’ll be amazed at the positive impact you’ll be making on your surrounding and yourself:

- Turn the tap off while you brush your teeth
- Repair before you renew
- Pick up local litter
- Walk
- Make something with leftovers
- Switch your lights off
- Take your own bags to the supermarket
- Dispose of chewing gums carefully
- Only fill the kettle with what you need
- Recycle spectacles/ old mobile phones
- Use paper on both sides
- Use a pen until it runs out of ink
- Unplug your mobile phone as soon as it’s charged
- Don’t print it unless you really, really need to
- Turn your computer screen off
- Buy local products
-... and thank those who help make your day better. It's priceless.

The problem with our society is that we tend to care what other people think. Like it or not, we do something because of acceptance. And we don't do something because of the same reason. To be accepted is nice, that's when we feel most welcomed or appreciated. But sometimes, we have to get out from our comfort zone and do something that many of us won't do. Especially when you know you're doing the right thing. You may think that these little things you do don't count, because you're not on a bigger scale to cause that difference. And because that's what you've been told over and over by most people. But don't be most people. Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does :)

No duty is more urgent than that of returning thanks!


Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I don’t know what to say.

A lot of unexpected things happened to me as of late. My laptop crashed when I had my life stored in it and that nothing could be retrieved. Okay, so that was a bit dramatic but you know what that means. Things happen when we least expect them. Hmm, hang on. Well I had a feeling that my laptop would soon malfunction, considering it’d been working for more than 5 years now(?) So it was kinda expected indeed. But what I didn’t expect to happen was the fact that it just died on me on one fine day. And I didn’t know what could possibly go wrong. Hargh.

Anyways, I’m doing alright. Things have been pretty crazy lately (with tons of work and programme and seminar… yay!) but I’m catching up so far. A bit worried about how in the world am I going to pull this one off (now that my laptop’s dead) but I’m not letting go. There’s no way I could possibly work things out if I’m too stressed but yeh, a lil bit of stress is good. Just enough to push me forward, to keep me going. As for right now, perhaps you can tell that I’m trying to channel my worries into productive energy. And this page is great for that :)

Well truth is, I was pretty dumbfounded as to where to begin. I mean I’ve begun somewhere but I’m not sure if I’m going towards the right direction. I guess I could care less now that time is running out and that nothing much I could do. All I’ve been doing is getting the materials back i.e find all the relevant sources and try to put them together, see if they fit or not. It’s a head scratch I know, as if I did almost nothing at all but hey, I guess I'll just find ways to get them done properly. I hope this is alright for now :-/

More importantly is that it dawned on me that technology is just a tool to help you; it never really defines who you are as a person nor tells people what kind of personality you have. And that is unsurprisingly true. Come to think of it, I’ve depended my life so much on it that I’ve become less self reliant. I’ve stored so much information in my computer’s micro brain, but not mine. So you can say I remember or understand almost nothing. Perhaps, worse, this brain of mine has never entirely worked on its own nor produced much significant thoughts. So much for the human power. Pfft.

Then again, I’m not here to tell you to go throw your things away now and be a technophobe. There’ s no need to blame technology for the classic mistakes we make. It’s just that while I’m still myself (i.e my actual brain thinking) and in the moment of self reflection, it’s good to know that it’s not the end of the world when something happens. In fact, let’s take this as an opportunity to unleash your real self and bring it forth. Be resourceful and see what happens. Will you make it or break it? :-)

Just think of one thing (not a person)… say a very important tool to you that has been with you for a very long time now gone/lost/broken/fill-in-the-blank. So what will you do without it? Will you lose yourself too? Or will you find ways to keep that little part of you somehow? Or just find something else that is equally good?

I’d like to find that out myself. Hmm.

Have a nice day,


Wednesday, September 23, 2009


I don't mind watching this over and over :-)


Saturday, September 19, 2009

Selamat Hari Raya! :D

Eid Mubarak to my dear Muslim brothers and sisters from all over the world, whether you're in Malaysia, Egypt, India, Canada, Japan, China, France, UK, USA, Africa, etc... though wherever you may be:

My deepest wishes for future health and happiness to you on this blessed day of Eid. May He accept our fasting and sacrifices, and guide us all to what is best, InsyaAllah :-)

Yours sincerely,

Sunday, September 13, 2009

I know the weekends are here when I watch this :D

Hahaz. Bunch of crazy fellas. Love 'em :DD

...anyways, I wonder if I can find those Blend Apparel t-shirts here. Simply love the design, colour and message(!)


Sunday, August 9, 2009

Friday, July 31, 2009

Life's like that.

I think I know now why I don’t become a journalist. I write anything I like at any given time. Though I can follow the rules on what to write and what not to write, somehow I find that restrictive and unappealing. I write at peace as much as at risk, yet I don’t feel obliged to do it. Well you could definitely see if something is forced. Like it is there but not felt. Good, but not good enough.

Then again, it’s funny sometimes when I look back and read what I wrote about positivity and all that energy. Like where did that come from? It was nice to know though that some of you liked the idea and followed through. I’m glad that you felt the same or even better. Good for you :)

Anyways, let me tell you or rather, clarify… what also came to mind when I thought about these things. For instance, when I told you to go ahead and be in love… I meant just that. But because it was only natural to feel so. And sometimes, at some point, part of me wanted to tell you to just go ahead and date someone totally wrong, (i.e. not right for you but maybe worth a try?) I got asked about this a lot. But I would never tell someone to do that because it might not feel right. And because it is something I’m not so sure about, something which I don’t really have an answer to.

Boy, it sure is hell inside my head. Lol.

But if you ask me that if I were to take that chances and things just worked out… I’d probably never have any idea why we ended up together. We might seem like two of the most unlikely people to wind up making sense. And maybe, just maybe, when the time comes and I shall look back at how my friends and I had changed, how our friendship would be different but not necessarily worse, I had a feeling we’d be alright. I guess relationships are just funny like that. It’s impossible to figure out why some work out and others don’t. Why someone can be so imperfect and still be perfect for you. Maybe in the end, it’s not about changing the person you care about. Maybe it’s about learning what you can live with. Or maybe it’s really about learning what you can’t live without.

Well okay, I’m no relationship expert nor do I have any experience whatsoever in it. But I do believe that God gives us the opportunity to learn and gain insights from the people we met and the things that happened in our lives. Each presence or existence has its own purpose, and so many reasons as to why things happened yet waiting to be discovered by you and everyone else. It will all come right in the wash…nothing is a complete waste.

So just remember- when in despair, love… let Him move through you :)

In joy yer day!

Friday, July 10, 2009

You rehearsed so good in my head that everything made perfect sense thank you.

"Something's different in my world today
Well they changed my traffic sign to a brighter yellow"


Thank you, Dear God. You're my top notch listener, a daymaker, a reason to live and love.


Saturday, July 4, 2009

Arrr, matey!

Swashbuckler life be fun. I wish I had another moon t' live like 't. Aye.

Anyways, many thanks t' all o' ye, be 't shipmates or nay... whom be havin' made me life more enjoyable durin' this sweet voyage. Me hat goes off t' ye, ladies an' gentlemen, boys an' lasses. 't be a pleasure t' meet ye too.

Till we meet again folks,

Joan O' Hara.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

To Lord, we all belong.

The lightest love you’d shown
made me weak to leave,
“When I’m gone into that gentle dawn,
Please sweet, wait not for me”

Her heart was made of gold,
Whose love was bright and strong;
She murmured soft and blissful-
“ To Lord, we all belong”

Though they go mad they shall be sane,
Though they sank through the sea, they shall rise again,
Though lovers be lost love shall not-
And death shall have no dominion.

The lightest love you’d shown
made me weak to leave,
“Oh when I’m gone into that gentle dawn-
Please sweet, weep not for me.”

In loving memory of Raja Aini 29/06/09
A beloved daughter and aunt, greatly missed.

May Allah bless your dear soul. Amin.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness. It finds the thought and the thought finds the words. ~ Robert Frost

I've noticed that the best poetry comes when everything else is crumbling. Or put together, like it or not :-)


Thursday, June 4, 2009

Some words. Finally.

I suppose I haven’t written anything much as of late. If you think that life just gets busy or that I just can’t write anymore or perhaps I’m just being downright lazy…yep, you are right about all of them. I’m all it.

It could be that I’ve been subconsciously detaching myself away from the palpable madness for a while. No, not that I’ve become a man of God or something, (even that is not a bad idea), but frankly speaking, I’m just putting myself in a comfort solitude for the past few weeks. I wasn’t becoming a recluse either, in fact, I got myself involved in a few life's events and even took committment in some of them. And sure, it felt kinda nice. Still does.

Anyways, if you feel that life needs you to move on but what you need right now is a 3-minutes break, by all means, have it. Eat a banana. Listen to a song that suits your moodswing. Or just stare at the sky for one full minute and take a deep breath. Right now I’m just listening to the song below because I feel kinda mellow. And that I miss home. Yes, it sure gives me the best homesick feeling I ever get that I just wanna go home and be with everyone else :-/

Then again, if anything befalls you today- just take it easy... but still take it.

... and to Mom, if you're reading this- Happy Birthday and I very much love you :-)


Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Thursday, May 28, 2009

Sunday, May 24, 2009

# Driving lessons part IV

I know what I saw.

Saturday, May 23, 2009

A song for someone.

And now i'm walking in the park
All of the birds they dance below me
Maybe when things turn green again
It will be good to say you know me

I am in repair
I am in repair

*Dear Asa, I wish I'd played this song before you. Hope it's still your one favourite Continuum ;-)


# Driving lessons part III

..going down the nth hill.  

Friday, May 22, 2009

Great. Now I'm stuck with this Paint thing.

 It's only a Friday after all. 
You didn't miss anything. 
I only missed you.


#Driving lessons part II

...oh, the HILLS.

# Driving lessons part I

Shoot. The car moves. 

Thursday, May 7, 2009

I need a reason to reason.

There’ll be moments when you don’t feel like writing anything even when you think you will or just have that sort of motivation. So I was inspired by many things and people recently. And proudly have written nothing about them as of yet. Procrastination is the word. I’ve been putting off writing to the public because my sentences as of late have been scatterbrained and incomplete.

Anyways, I don’t think it’s a bad thing when you don’t feel awesome. Awesomeness may not be something you feel everyday, but that’s fine. The existence of other feelings is perhaps, just to make you miss the old feeling of being awesome. That it is something special and not just any other feeling that you can get now and then. Rather, it needs to be lived and cherished as much as possible when it is felt. Otherwise, you’ll still experience something else. Something different or equally awesome. So it’s not at all bad, really :-) 

Now a random but rather obvious question yet questionable…do you think that everything happens for a reason? 

One thing for example- I love medicine yet I don’t know why exactly I’m loving it. 

I guess the desire to do it gets stronger each day but the reason just wears away. Maybe I just want to go home someday, thinking that I have done something right…that I have actually saved somebody’s life. Hmm. No superficial nor profound motive. Just that. 

As much as I believe in logic and all that statistics, I still hold on to intuition and its 'practicality'. I believe in God’s mysterious way of making things happen and call it hope. And I do believe there’s reason to everything… some are just known to us, some are understood at last. Some are fathomable, and some are just plain complex. But most of the time, it is right before us, we just need some time to think it through. So there is such thing as the “right” moment to realize it. Understanding isn’t something you can get by observing the outcome, but by living the outcome. It is not something you can work out easily only to find out if there’s any meaning to it, but perhaps, time is the only thing that’ll make it meaningful. And that it is not simply a wish, but rather a gift to those who deserve it.

Oh maybe I’ll go see fireworks, someday… and that’s because I just want to see them. 

... or prolly get in touch with an old friend, like a scoop of ice cream. Well, I need no reason for that. 

Rock it. 


Saturday, April 18, 2009

If ever I felt cool in this life, it was then.

So it all started at the ice rink. I had a good time with a few friends. Yep, my first time ever. But it wasn’t bad at all. Ice skating was fun. And that was enough to make me inline skate again. After 9 years without it, I’m pretty sure I’m gonna start anew. Like a total amateur. And ready to get bruised all over again. Oh yeh, bring it on…

Then today, I started simple. Just going around the neighbourhood. And the kids were watching me skate as if it was some kind of new religion. No, not because I flew up in the air or did those hella good moves or what (you wish it happened that way lol) it’s just the mere sight of rollerblades somewhat gave them the thrills already. Oh, I recognised the feelings all too well, I suppose. Kinda reminds me of my sisters and our childhood friends, who were also our skate buddies- Hani, Helmi, Hakim… when we started the thing, which became a phenomenon since. And you guys were awesome! I wonder if they still remember those twists and jumps. Oh how we loved the risks- of steeps and bumps. Haha. Sensational. As always :) 

Ah, looking at ‘em bruises now, I think I remember where I got those holes on my pants from. Thanks to my several attempts-which-I-knew-would-fail-somehow-but-nevermind. So I fell just everywhere and made some turns. It wasn’t a rock star experience, that’s for sure. But maybe after some practice, who knows if I’ll ever be as good as I once was. Hopefully. Well anyways, I’d definitely give it a shot.

Tomorrow, I’m gonna start with some basic moves and smooth my turns. Just to see whether I still got it. Haha. Otherwise, it’s one of those moments where you can be a total idiota and just have a good time. I know I will :)

…but first, I need to get a pair of shin guards or something. Why, I only have two knees.

Keep rollin’


Monday, April 6, 2009

This is it for now.

Rest Assured
* I'd like to thank Stella for your suggestion for the title of this one. Yes, it fits perfectly. And also to Bill and Allan, thank you very much for your thoughts. Very much appreciated :-) 

I believe in 
even if it dies;
where my hope survives;
when all I have 

I believe in 
so you can be found;
where you're the sound;
when you

I believe in
where life is learnt;
that we’ve abandoned;
and God,
though He


*so this will be my last post until God knows when. yes, i do have a life in case you aren't aware lol. just need to get a few things done. properly. anyways, i thank you for sticking around. just stay awesome, please :) 


Sunday, April 5, 2009

What fun is it being cool if you can’t wear a sombrero?

Moodswing: My girl by Incubus (originally by The Temptations)

I've been screaming without a voice. Due to unexplainable stress. You bet it's fun :-)

…well, the world bores you when you’re cool.

Just bring it on.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Weekends don’t count unless you spend them doing something completely pointless.

Firstable, allow me to thank you for your generous effort for making the Earth Hour possible. I applaud every single one of you :-) 

Meanwhile, something totally unrelated…

Sometimes there are people that you care about just can’t talk to you for some reason. That talking to you makes ‘em sad somehow. Sounds familiar? Make me get it. 

There are things in life that can’t be classified all that easily. Bonds that happen and break unknowingly; reasons that don’t make sense and sometimes, we dream for unattainable things that have no names. Sounds familiar? Happens to me too. 

I thought my life would seem more interesting with a musical score and a laugh track. Otherwise, I’m just taking a short break from this whole revision thing. Hmm.

Homework, I command thee: BE DONE!



Saturday, March 28, 2009

Need a cookie. or two.

...a good time out it was!



Friday, March 20, 2009

It's that moment of dawning comprehension I live for.

So I accidentally write and post a lot these days, therefore some people may assume I have every self-published word memorized or that I live these shared thoughts constantly. This is not the case. My brain doesn’t reference myself very well actually, and I’m sure I contradict myself every other day in one way or another. One day I feel like I have all the wisdom of the world and the next day my soul wears thin and I stutter just ordering ice cream. 

Then again, this is what I love doing; and that it keeps me going. There’s no rule saying that you can’t be happy with what keeps you so. Just rant. Talk about whatever that comes to mind. Don’t worry about “not making any sense in this or that” … because you will, eventually. Listen to music or anything that appreciates your feelings. Sing to it out loud. Write down things that “get you” or that don’t- see if they’re related. Amuse yourself with crazy ideas and funny drawings. Write whatever and call it poetry. Express your utmost thoughts and feelings, through words or pictures. Create and recreate. You know you’re most alive when you’re in tune with yourself. So expand and spread that awesomeness elsewhere :-) 

By the way, speaking of which, something awesome is going to happen soon. A one-hour night that may mean a lot to our Mother Earth. And this is something that you can take part so easily without needing so much energy. And I mean that literally :-) 

8:30PM local time, wherever you live on planet Earth. Saturday 28 March 2009. Just sit in the dark and share stories. Get your ‘on the night’ photos with family and friends. Lie around the beach and get a star tan. Keep in tune with Mother Nature. Whether you’re in solitude or multitude- thank your Lord. Whatever you do or however you spend that one hour, it will all be it worthwhile :-)

More of this? 

May the muse be with you.


Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Excuse me while I finish this slice.

I have become unstoppable the as of late. Good. This time, I’m back with some easy breezy, unseen/one-sided love kind of thing, in a pretty simple manner. Some lines are meant to be sappy… reflecting how infatuated a person can be. Well, this is not my first time writing this love/romance genre. I did write a few years back. You can see some here as you browse through the old previous posts. DO NOT feel free to have a look. The rest, which are more incomprehensible ones are in the private community. Yes, feel free to read them ;-)

Anyways, whatever written down here… it is not based on my experience. More like observation, so to speak. Kinda like being able to see the moment when a boy meets girl, a boy falls in love, and a boy breaks down… okay, okay, I made that one last up. But you get my gist. If anything, I’m the most inexperienced love expert. Contradicting? Writers are all that. Trust me ;-)

All feedbacks are welcome :-)

*Dear friends in love, this is for YOU*

All to Myself I Keep

If loving you
is ever so easy
I’ll tell you over and over

…but this, to myself I keep.
But this, to myself I keep.

I seek not your attention, my sweet
It’s your spirit- keeps me alive indeed
Like a smile can make any day turn bright
Oh, why loving you feels so right.

Your tone is lazy,
Your words, they’re
hanging, on a teaspoon-

to no tune;
on a moon.

like flowers
these feelings, wilt;
but it’s me
whom I find all weak.
If loving you
is enough for me;
I’ll watch you in silence

Somehow to you, I cannot speak,
It’s true what they say-
“I just can’t breathe”

…so all to myself, I keep.
So all to myself, I keep.

For all the twist and bliss;
For all the butterflies in my sky;
I thank you, Love, for this-
You’re my secret joy, one of a kind.

If only you could see me now
perhaps, I’d have opened this stupid mouth;
If only I’d ever said just anything-

…but all to myself, I keep.
Still, all to myself, I keep.


Friday, March 13, 2009

Writing should never be this hard.

Hati itu Bumi; kadang-kadang cantik, kadang-kadang merisaukan!
barangkali seperti Langit- kadang-kadang lapang, kadang-kadang menyesakkan. Kau mungkin keras, puas- tapi masih kosong, sepi. atau mungkin, cukup lurus -tapi telus, berisi budi. Hati itu Satu; bukan dua. Kau tiada; atau semua. Hati yang indah mungkin cinta- namun pada siapa? Hati yang terikat pada kiblat- itulah Nikmat yang paling padat! Hai hati, kau mati sebelum manusia dimamah Bumi- cantik tapi tua, asli tapi plastik…kan aku dah kata, kau ini seperti Bumi?

Karut tetap karut. But I have to begin somewhere to start writing poetry again. Yes, it’s been a while it seems. And yet, I came up with this. Haha. I was never good at Malay writing to be honest. I wish I was a lot better. Not that I never tried… it’s just that every time I do, they all sound too good to be true. Too flowery, I suppose. Haha. But despite all that, I just need to get the right feeling to express better. No pun intended :-)

I’m not messed up. But these random thoughts just popped up in my head. Macam-macam interpretasi bila tengok gelagat orang. Kadang-kadang rasa letih dengan pemikiran sendiri. Haha. Dah lama tak fikir banyak. Seronok pula rasanya, bila sekali sekala berlaku. Teringat zaman yang bingung… semua benda nampak macam asing. Hmm. A beautiful memoir, it was :-) Anyway, I’m sure we all have our own minds that we choose to live in, don’t you think?

So dear writers out there. You know who you are. Keep on writing. Write something random. Be random. Tell us what you think. Or what you do not think. Talk to someone you least expect to talk to about things. Share a secret. Go ahead and be in love. Live the moment as it should be lived :-)

A poet without hysterics is rare.


Saturday, March 7, 2009


Okay, now back to reality:


...they sure know how to make a highlight on my day. ha-ha.

i miss my coke. really.

Thursday, March 5, 2009


Dear Mr Mraz,

You were so graceful, sir. The best thing since Coke. No, you're even better :-)

I’m not gonna say anything much about the concert. It was too awesome that I couldn’t think of anything properly. Haha. Heck, like how was I supposed to think (?) Perhaps, I was singing to every single song like no one else’s business. Most probably. I was almost sure that he looked at me singing some songs (like No Stopping Us and Sleeping to Dream) which sounded foreign to many but familiar enough to me. I think I got him at that nanosecond. Haha. Sure, call it whatever you like. I know what I saw. And yes, sir. I did my homework. It wasn’t just lip sync :-)

Here are some of the tunes that were played last night:-

Make it Mine
The Remedy
Beautiful Mess
You and I Both
I’m Yours
Live High
If It Kills Me
No Stopping Us
The Geek in the Pink
Sleeping to Dream
The Dynamo of Volition

And now, some souvenirs, with love ;-)

I was much (much) closer than this spot. Trust me. 

Mr. Mraz- Live stage performance.

... and we were really there!

The view of the night.

Singing Butterfly

Sleeping to Dream

...Toca the man(!)


Also, here goes my special gratitude to my concert buddies- Hariry, Aishah and Felly. You guys were awesome… Indeed. Terima kasih! :-)

We sing. We dance. We steal…*pics* ;D

Don’t let your mind stop you from having a good time- Jason Mraz

You just made my day and hours and minutes worth every second, sir :-)

...polaroids are frickin' hot.


Saturday, February 28, 2009

Saturdays don't start much worse than this.

Here's something random really: 

1) It’s hard enough to have to deal with lack of common sense… but HONESTY is something practical. Please.

2) If something goes wrong, I'm not dumb. I just have a command of thoroughly useless information. Period.

3) Is it a right to remain ignorant? Yes? Go back to No. 1 :-)

I just can't identify with that kind of work/life ethic. That goes without saying.

Nothing helps a bad mood like spreading it around(!)


Friday, February 20, 2009

Dear L.

Alles Gute zum Geburtstag!

Happy 20th Leah Crackheadson!
 (or whatever your name is)

*yep, it was baaad enough to be reminded of what happened on YOUR day, really*
My bad. Hee.

Ah, c'est tant pis. JOYEUX ANNIVERSAIRE, ma chere :-)

...que tous tes voeux se réalisent !


Saturday, February 14, 2009

So you wish you never read this.

  1. I’m a doofus on ice creams, thanks.
  2. …still, I love 'em ice creams!
  3. Peppermint is my favourite :-)
  4. I might suck at cooking dishes, but a  bit better at muffins and cakes and cookies.
  5. I think Jason Mraz rocks. Period.
  6. I like polaroids.
  7. I’m in love with the sky et al. I think we’re involved. Lmao.
  8. I’m hypocrisy intolerant.
  9. I like colours of the rainbow.
  10.  My most played song is 0% interest. The lyrics just kick ass.
  11. I can be self-contradicting.
  12. I love all sorts of writing.
  13. I think crayons and water colour make good combination for a drawing.
  14. I love staring into the night especially when there’s nothing in the sky.
  15. I have too many shirts with stripes. Seriously.
  16. I think people who don’t swear are just cute. I know one ;-)
  17. I still can’t give up my habit of eating…plenty. Please.
  18. I love more than I hate so no worries.
  19. I want to go places someday. Like Japan or something hmm,
  20. My most overused phrase is awesome. Idk, it's just awesome :-)
  21. I think it may take less than a minute to read this list, but a lifetime making it.
  22. I don’t know exactly what makes me choose medicine
  23. ... that I boldly resolved not to go home until this block is over-
  24. but then realized what a stupid motion that was.
  25. And now I miss my teddies. Harrgh.

I wish I could tag you twice, Leah. I do.

The rest, if you’re reading this, you’re tagged.

You heard me. Don’t make me repeat myself, unless you want to be tagged twice. That’ll be 50 things altogether. Nice. That should take another life. 

…I’m sorry, but that’s the only way to un-tag yourself :-)

So you wish you never read this.

Did I not tell you that? :-))

God, I love tags, I do. Grrh.


Tuesday, January 27, 2009

So I was somewhere [t]here.

The blogs have taken a back seat these past weeks. I've nothing to report. Life is ruling. Attentions are elsewhere. Heart is swollen with goodness. Having a ball.

Just thought I'd take 5 minutes to update this rather than keep my sweet grass sushis top story. I’d been on a vacation that not many knew two weeks ago. Though I knew I would be found out, eventually, but it was not meant to be kept as a secret, either. Anyway, it all happened so fast that the next thing I knew I was home again. So I don’t think there's a need for more information. In short, it was rather a quick break from everything else, which I enjoyed myself (and with the exception of a few friends). Upon returning home, I didn’t get that much needed rest as I had expected, either, (from what seemed like an adventurous but really fun kind of trip anyway). But my sleep is recovering really nicely somehow. I’ve been staying at the college now during this Chinese New Year’s break, when I should be home I know, but I really need the rest I had promised myself. I knew if I were to be home, I would have nothing of the sort- I would eventually be out or probably just anywhere but home and finally returned with restlessness. Although there seems like nothing much to do around here in college, I find myself more useful at the end of the day; by cleaning up the room, flipping a few pages of that colouful atlas of Parasitology, which actually happened by accident, and spending more time watching cartoons at night, while being wrapped up in a thermal blanket. Well, some nights were unusually cold though it didn’t rain for days. Well I might be just odd, but then again I was fulfilled.

Speaking of Cold, I wonder if there was ever ice developing on the toilet water, because the seat had gone a bit chilly the as of late. Or prolly it was just me. Heck.

Btw, here's some souvenir for you (sorry, I couldn't get much during the trip, really)

I'll definitely make a come back, I promise.

Have a good day all year round, sweet peeps ;-)


Saturday, January 24, 2009

Back to Earth. Finally.

The sky was never this lovely.